April 28, 2010

So for the last couple hours I've been thinking about myself, sounds selfish but it really isn't. I was just kind of looking at what kind of guy I am when it comes to women. Talking to them, dating them, anything, how do I act in different situations? Well, in a lot of cases I probably romanticize myself as some kind of suave guy, truth is I'm not, in fact I'm the furthest from it, just ask a couple girls and they'll tell you. I've done a lot of stupid shit, yet they still talk to me, so I guess that means I'm likeable? Who knows. Anyway, while I was looking into this I realized that I basically worship the female body, not in the sick perverted way, I just find it fascinating. Certain body types of course, everyone has their preferences, but when I see a girl who's got a body close to what I'm looking for I just can't stop looking at her, and it's gotten me into some bad situations, but not very often. I guess what I'm trying to say is, I may look at the body and drool a bit, but that's not what I'm about. I can really appreciate a girl for her intelligence, humor, wit, and anything in between. My one real turn on is the type of music a girl listens to, if she is into the semi obscure bands I am into then it's hard to not be attracted, once again depending on the girl. And for some reason I'm more attracted to the extremes, either infectious personality or the shy girl. Mainly the first, but things change once in awhile. Now I don't even really know where I am going with this. I guess basically what I'm getting at is that I kind of just want to find that girl that I can hang out with, I don't want to date right now, that's too much baggage, and I'm too busy to carry it all. Some people can manage this well, but of the ones I've seen so far they've been together for awhile and it's a little easier that way. I'm down to 'hang with the bros' once in awhile, but I can't do that all the time, too much testosterone at some points, it almost becomes a competition.
These last few days have been pretty great though, school is starting to wind down and I'm just overall trying to enjoy my final bits of sophomore year. I'll be running for a position in the student organization for Landscape Architecture for next year, hopefully, still waiting to find out. Other than that I have a banquet coming up in which I accept a $500 scholarship that my classmates nominated me for, which I am still in awe about. Other than that things have been running pretty smoothly, I'll try to update this more often in the near future, but for now I am out.